Loosing Myself to a Mother in me!
Loosing myself to a mother who’s born with baby Y looks like a part of lifestyle now.
No I am not complaining about the same but just acknowledging!
Suddenly everyone around me want me to be wiser and accept the new role as easily as eating a pie!
After I have become a mother, all that people talk about is baby Y, little they remember that I am going through zillion of new things in my life too.
No one (including my immediate family) bothers to just talk and ask if I am doing fine.
It’s been more than 3 years to this and I am sort of adjusted to the typical Indian society!
But the main question is..
Am I being fare to myself??
After a struggle and brainstorming for 3 long years I got the answer from my mind and heart “NO”!
Being awake all night, I don’t think of sleeping when baby Y is asleep rather I think of how to manage household chores! (Just to listen that I do nothing all day long!)
No book, no instructor, no doctor ever told me during my pre natal days that “I will loose myself to become a mother!”
I have transformed by the experience that motherhood has offered me.
Some of them are so amazing that I found my new boundaries and how selfless I can be. And some of them being hard, really really hard!
I sometimes feel that I have completely lost myself to a new life that I have created and embraced.
I always thought of a name that’s relatable to me and my situation.
How I always ended up to be messy while i make sure my kid is the best and clean kid, well fed, well dressed, well taken care of.
How I always ended up being messy while I make sure that there’s a plate of food available for my Family and forgetting about my plate completely!
How I always ended up being messy while I make sure that house is well cleaned (cluttered with baby Y’s stuff though) so that my kid won’t suffer any infections or and health hazards!
Hence the name “Messy Mom’s Life!”
I have suddenly become a stranger to my own self!I am somehow ok with the life I am living but I want to show my gratitude and love to the stranger I have become as to she is the one who taught me to embrace my own self and work on myself with the same love and passion I am working on my kid and husband (which is always invisible!)
Requesting all the new moms to give equal priority to yourself as much as you give to your baby and family.
Because all that your baby needs is a happy mommy and not the one who’s struggling being herself!